Let me start by saying ALL babies are gifts. Especially those born with disabilities and such. But all parents can relate to what I'm about to say. I just want our little girl to pop out HEALTHY! It's my number one fear.
So this story goes back to when Kristen (my wife) and I went back to visit my family back in Michigan a couple weeks ago. Our doctors appoinment with the gender reveal of our baby wasn't going to be for a couple more weeks, so we decided to pay $40 and go to this private place in Chicago that performs ultrasounds. I had no idea I would walk out of there completey scared and heartbroken.
I wasn't aware of this walking in, but since these little private ultrasound places don't have doctors on staff, they can't comment about anything medical. They basically just find the gender for you and give you some pictures to take home.
So everything seemed to be going well. She kept commenting on how beautiful the little baby looked in Kristen's tummy. Then I said something I never should have said. I blurted out, "and she looks healthy, right?" The ultrasound tech kind of paused and said.... "well... I can't comment on anything medical. If I find any problems I have to place a private call to your doctor."
The tone she was using didn't comfort this worried dad-to-be's heart at all!! So I doubled down. I said, "but you won't have to call the doc, right? Because she looks healthy, right...?" Now keep in mind I had NO idea that she wasn't allowed to comment on anything medical. I was just wanting to hear that phrase, "everything looks good to me!"
So the tech paused again... as if she was searching for the right words... "Like I said... um... if I were to see anything bad... I would have to call your doctor privately after you leave." Well that's all it took. I could barely pay attention to anything after that. I'd like to think I'm pretty good at reading body language, and I swear I could tell she was holding back some bad news from us. I could hear it in her voice. I knew something was wrong.
So we ended up going back home to see my family. We cut into the gender cake... it was pink! We celebrated the fact that we had a little girl on the way... but all the while in the back of my mind I was scared to death that something was wrong with our little one. It's all I could think about.
Well finally, yesterday we went to see the doctor in Bellevue. He did a thorough 3D ultrasound and inspected every inch of that little baby. And finally at the end came the news... "your baby is completely healthy! She weighs 1 pound and everything looks completely normal." I wanted to jump up and pump my fist and scream YEAHHHHHH BABY!!! But I just sat there in relief trying to hold back the tears.
I was mostly successful at holding back the tears... until he said the following: "Nick and Kristen, when you guys get home today, you should write your little girl a letter. Tell her how much you love her already... how much you can't wait to meet her... and how happy you are that she looks so healthy." That was it. I was done. Tears.
I know, I know. I worry too much. I shouldn't have gotten so nervous. But this is my first child! It's hard not to worry.
Anyway, let me conclude with this. In my opinion, go to a damn doctor when you get an ultrasound!! Especially when it's your first baby. There's nothing to me like the peace of mind that a good doctor can provide.
More updates soon... thanks as always for reading :)
She has been in the oven for 21 weeks, and we just found out that she's a "she" last week. So... I ask you... any ideas for names?? My wife and I have a few we like, but what does she look like to you??
You can see her head and face at the top if you looks closely. Looks so beautiful to me already :)
She has been in the oven for 21 weeks, and we just found out that she's a "she" last week. So... I ask you... and ideas for names?? My wife and I have a few we like, but what does she look like to you??
You can see her head and face at the top if you look closely. Looks so beautiful to me already :)
I don't often take up causes to promote... but after watching a Dateline episode with Keith Morrison on NBC, this story outraged me! For those who haven't been keeping up with Ryan Ferguson's story over the last 10 years, I'll do my best to summarize what happened. This all happened in Columbia, MO.
Ryan and his friend Chuck snuck into a bar (under age) back when they were 17 on Halloween night. Chuck got completely wasted and Ryan gave him a ride home just after 11pm. Receipts prove this is true. Hours after they left that bar, a newspaper editor named Kent was murdered nearby as he was heading to his car around 2am.
Chuck later said he had a dream that he and Ryan were involved in the murder, but he was too drunk (and high) to remember. Interrogation video CLEARLY shows police feeding Chuck several key details about the murder. Police also convinced a local janitor to testify against Ryan, saying he was at the scene. Chuck and the janitor (Jerry) testified at Ryan's trial and Ryan was sentenced to 40 years in prison. There was a TON of physical evidence left at the scene (hair, finderprints, DNA... etc). NONE of it matched Ryan. He was convicted solely on the testimony of two confused men.
As the years went by, Chuck and Jerry were so consumed with guilt about lying at trial, that they later said they would be willing to spend the rest of their lives in prison for purgery, as long as it meant Ryan would go free. So now in addition to NO physical evidence matching Ryan, there was also no testimony putting him at the scene. He was clearly serving time in prison for a crime he didn't commit. But he still sat behind bars for years. 10 years. Missing birthdays, Christmases, and every day life with his family.
Then came a really amazing lawyer named Kathleen Zelner. She took up Ryan's case and vowed to set him free. And she did just that. Yesterday, Ryan walked out of prison a free man after a higher court ruled he had not recieved a fair trial and the state of Missouri decided not to retry him. For the first time in 10 years, Ryan put on a comfortable sweater and a new pair of shoes... and went out and had a steak and a beer with his family.
As you go about your day today, don't take your freedom for granted. And if by chance you feel like giving Ryan Ferguson a couple bucks to enjoy his new life, here's the link: https://fundly.com/ryan-ferguson-fund
So I traveled back to Grand Rapids, Michigan over the weekend to spend some time with my family... and we planned it so Kristen (my wife) and I could reveal the sex of our first baby to everyone! We did something really fun. Gender cake!!
We gave the baker a sealed envelope from the ulatrasound tech... so we didn't even know the gender until we cut into the cake. When we cut it, we found out it's going to be a BABY GIRL!!
I'm so excited. And scared to death. But I'm glad I get to go through all of this with my best friend, Kristen.
Thanks for all the kind words and support, it means the world to Kristen and I!
In case you missed it last night... here's the moment everyone is talking about from the CMA's. Miranda Lambert wins Female Vocalist, and while Miranda is congratulating Kasey Musgraves... Kasey looks back at Miranda like she wants to murder her. Why Kasey!? Why....?
It was me! I'm guilty! I don't know how I'll ever forgive myself for this one!!!
What I thought was a festive manicure was probably the reason our beloved Seahawks lost to the 49ers. Red & Gold...holiday colors, right? Also San Franscico...